short and sweet...not

waaah. today's september 25! I've been writing "september 24 2007" on all of my school works today. haha.

SLAPHAPPY

I didn't work my ass off during high school just to be called a stupid student because of the university I'm entering! Gaaah. I feel so crappy right now. I need somebody. Somebody like my sister who'll reassure me and then hug me tight. She'll tell me that I didn't work for nothing. I am so perturbed and slaphappy right now. I can tell this feeling will conquer my days and stay for a while.
I feel so effing bad that the university I want to enter is a last resort to most students. gee, maybe I am as stupid and crappy as I seem. I'm not smart enough for other schools. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

boot

"I'm going to take up nursing for college."
I hate how most of people my age react to this. They do something with their faces that kind of ticks me off. I can't tell if they're disgusted or what. Tsss, they look down on nurses. Or they probably think I'm doing this to get out of the country and they assume that by the time I graduate, nobody will need nurses. Well, i've something to say to you people who look at me like that: I have a plan. ahahahaha. Well, hopefully it works out.
I'm taking up nursing as my pre med if God allows me to go to med school after. If not, then I'm a nurse. This isn't my plan plan. It's too broad.
The perks of being a nurse- you get to choose your shift. ahaha. I don't want to get ahead of myself...so blah...
School is...uh yeah, school.
Soundtracks. yeah. i love it.

Hmmm, i'm gonna answer a survey. I've observed that most people answer them if they want to kill time and accomplish something totally bootless. here goes...

from pao-wowow
1. Do you burp in front of guys?
well, would you consider my cousins as "guys"? you probably would. yes then.
2. Do you straighten your hair?
yep, whenever necessary.
3. What's your favorite local girl magazine?
candy. hands down.
4. Did you ever spend all day/nigh tgetting pretty for a guy?
en-oh, NO
5. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
guilty
6. Would you leave the house without makeup on?
Let's just say that I WOULD'T LEAVE the house if I HAD MAKEUP on.
7. Do you consider making out "unladylike"?
i'm the last person on earth that you should ask about that. i'm too young.
8.On the scale of 1-10 how fun is shopping?
10 being the highest? 10. How would purchasing things you want not fun?
9. Do you think lipgloss is the best?
no. food is the best. haha
10. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
nah. TiVo and DVD compensate for that. hihi
11. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
15-30 minutes
12. Do you like soccer boys?
sure, i guess. love soccer though, that's for sure.
13. Is pink the best color in theworld?
it is NOT
14. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
nope. I am totally against that.
15. Do you often wish there was something you could change about yourself ?
yeah, but I try not to think about it. God created me like this, i should appreciate it.
16. Do you dress up too much for holidays?
no. I actually dress down. haha
17. Do you like to wear dresses?
I WOULD like to.
18. Do you write a lot of mushy lovepoems?
bleuh. no.
19. On a scale 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
10 being the highest again? 7...at the moment.
20. In the past 24 hours have you hungout with a guy?
yeah.
21. Are shoes your weakness?
nope. high heels make me weak though. they kill my feet. hahaa. kidding.
22. Is chocolate your best friend?
yesss. haha
23. Do you like to paint your nails?
I'm not allowed so no.
25. How many times do you look in the mirror a day?
4 or less
26. Are your nails long and pretty?
Nope. Again not allowed.
27. How often do you wear high heels?
lemme see, uh, never. except for prom maybe.
28. Would you rather go to a sports event or go shopping?
either
29. Would you rather go to a rock concert or prepare yourself for a party?
PREPARE MYSELF for a party? pssh. rock concert!
30. Would you rather listen to music or dance to music?
depends on my moooooooooood

college- the frightening concept called our future

okay, so exams totally caught me off guard. after the holidays that the typhoons had blessed us with, exams halted my laid back demeanor. i'm just happy that it's over already cause it was so dang hard.
like what Troy Bolton said, (okay, so High School Musical is still my guilty pleasure. heck! Disney IS my guilty pleasure. sorry to those people who are TOO COOL for kiddie stuff like Disney, i'm not COOL or whatever like you people.)"I've always liked the idea of taking charge of my future, until it actually started happening." he also said that college is the frightening concept called our future. i feel the EXACT same way.
It was endoctrinated in me, eversince i was a kid, that i would be going to UP. i've always seen myself walking in UP Diliman under the shade of the trees there. i love the trees there. But now, i don't think i'll be going there beacause: a. my course isn't available there and b. i don't think i passed the UPCAT. (i don't want to say that i KNOW i didn't pass, don't want to get ahead of God) I dreamt of being a vet, and i worked my way up to being a pathologist. I dream big, and i don't think it's an advantage for me right now. DUDE, it all sums up to what Troy Bolton said!!! it's crazy, how a disney character put how i feel into words.
college scares the (insert whatever word here) out of me. i think it's because i'm to immature for it. i mean come on, i still love Disney. i am still a kid. seriously...i mean, seriously.