giddy

today was like "wooow"...dizzy type of wooow...you don't have to care or read this. it's stupid.
i just found out that i really don't dig THE or TLE whatever. seriously, i don't like discussions or reports tackling TLE. i'd rather do projects because I learn from them. discussions? i've grown weary. i used to listen. Then i pretended to listen by staring at the green black board covered by yellow manila paper. Now, i simply do not pay attention I'd try staring at the board and be like, "whaaa?". I'm also tired of making THE reports, and of the asking about the report. I don't see the depth of THE. It's not like science, math, literature, or history. Those subjects melt your brain, but they melt em good. haha. what i'm trying to say is that, the subjects i mentioned have depth. there's something more than just what you read. you can see patterns or connections that'll totally make your jaw drop. haha. i'm making academics sound good. along with the awe you feel, you'd also get eyebags, fatigue...hahaha...well, i hope i don't offend anyone. I respect whoever teaches this subject. I just don't put that much enthusiasm into this particular subject. never have. 'cept for projects...
i'm happy that my part of the report is about diseases. i have a thing for diseases. i don't mind studying them as long as i have ample time. i kinda like it actually...if i'm given ample time.hehe
i'm totally losing my head. tanja said that the very little alcohol that i drank is taking its toll on me, just today. haha. i've been so happy-giddy-sleepy today.
trust me, when you lack sleep, as in you lack it and you feel like dropping on the floor and sleeping there...you might end up like me. when i'm happy-giddy-sleepy, i act nuts and laugh and smile and act shallow-er than i already am. it feels good when there are people around you, but when you're alone, or it's really quiet, you get really sleeepy. the floor starts to seem like a really comfortable place to sleep. i've slept on the floor. clean floor. it seemed like a good idea at the time...hahaha...still does