another sun soaked season fades away

for most people, summer's when they hit the beach or some cold place, and have the time of their lives. for me, it's the only time i'm with my family. it's the only time i'm near them.
i love my family. when we're together, sure we have fights, but we balance each other out, and we always manage to laugh about everything. the two babies also make me forget about all my problems.
i'm leaving for the philippines tomorrow. it is painful.
i wanna live here. i don't want to go back. i dunno. we'll see what happens i guess. i can't wait to say "finally we're together".
dramatic i know. some of you don't know what it feels like. but i'm not complaining because the Lord has blessed us in so many ways. He's making it work. some people are experiencing worse things, so i'm thankful.

so, school. it's gonna be our senior year. our last year. i'm not excited at all. the college entance exams will ruin it all. graduation will make us breakdown. i'm sure there will be lots of laughs, brightsides, upsides, good times but those times will make seperating a lot more painful.

YEAH. I'M NOT EXCITED ABOUT LEAVING, ESPECIALLY GOING BACK TO SCHOOL. NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL.